I’ve been lying to my calendar.
I’ve been back from an awesome business trip for weeks now, but I haven’t told anyone.
Because I haven’t really been “back”.
First I had to recover from the vulnerability hangover the workshop I delivered gave me.
Then I had to lie in front of my book with a tub of organic Zambian peanut butter and a spoon.
Then I had to catch up with all the clients who for weeks leading up to the awesome business trip/intense workshop had to be content with mere slithers of me.
And then – this is the wild bit – I found the secret door to an abundance of clients, enthusiasm, money, treats, good coffee, good food and goodwill. In other words, things in my life started getting OMG good!
I was in the magic garden.
Back? Not so much.
But then I started getting nervous. What if this won’t last? What if it’s all a mistake? What if I’m not good enough? Do I really deserve this?
I’d reached what Gay Hendricks in his book The Big Leap calls an Upper Limit. It’s the point you get to when you feel too much good stuff is happening. High five to Abigail for pointing this out.
Here’s what I found myself doing
- Doubting I was good enough
- Feeling overwhelmed
- Feeling uncomfortable
- Overcompensating
- Ready to pick fights
- Making stupid business decisions
- Not swimming (my lifeline)
- Eating way too much (of everything).
So now what?
So now, with the pleasure of receiving a new gift, I could refocus and re-visit some of the things we all know but sometimes forget to do:
My go-to practice when I feel off-balance is EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique, or Tapping). It immediately brings me back to my center. If your beliefs allow you to do this, I highly recommend it.
Watch my thoughts and language. The minute I catch myself plugging into old, limiting belief systems, I gently remind myself that it’s not that way anymore.
When things start getting uncomfortable, or I feel myself getting scratchy I say, “It’s safe for me to receive this”.
When a new client signs up, or money shows up, or I’ve done a particularly good talk, or I receive an unexpected show of affection from one of my sons, I say thank you.
And now I would love to hear about your experiences in the comments below.
Do you ever self-sabotage?
Or if you’ve already learned how to deal with this, what are the go-to practices you use to enjoy your success?
